If you knew this will get better, you would probably hate me less

If you knew it never would have worked, you would probably hate me less

If you knew that I did everything in my power to hold on as long as I could to us, you would probably hate me less

If you didn’t have to be reminded of me everyday, you would probably hate me less

If you knew me leaving actually pushed you into becoming stronger and more self aware, you would probably hate me less

If you knew that I meant it every time I begged for you to get better because I loved you, you would probably hate me less

If you knew if it wasn’t him, it would have been something else, you would probably hate me less

If you knew that I loved you completely and truly meant it when I said I didn’t know what I needed when I left, you would probably hate me less

If you knew I wanted you to find someone that made you happy so you can experience a better love than me, you would probably hate me less

If you knew this was something I needed to take care of me, you would probably hate me less

If you knew I have never been so happy and nothing has ever felt so right, you would probably hate me less..

Or
You would hate me more
And in that case
I still did the right thing.

…..
I was drowning in
your shallow sea;
I swim
you are the storm,
the wind and the waves,
you break me in two and toss me away
You are the waves that toss me in.

I fell apart when I fell for you

How can I float above
the water that fills my lungs?
you are the water filing my lungs, killing me softly without a word
Killing me softly without a word.
Without a word
….

I’m sorry, Keyton.
It just wouldn’t fit.
It just wouldn’t fit.